Heart in the Clouds

Monday, March 28, 2011

Gratitudes 2011 - #10

So I’ve been on a blog break. Not sure why, but a day turned into a week…which turned into a few weeks. But it ended up being a good thing and something I feel God led me into. Over those few weeks, I’ve had some good talks with God and He’s shown me some things in my heart that need work. I guess that it’s good for me to take breaks now and then, so I can see if my desire to express my gratitude this way has actually had any REAL effects on my attitudes and on the true condition of my heart…I’m happy to say that it has.

Instead of being down on myself because of the issues I see in my heart, I have been able to look past them and still see myself the way God sees me. That’s a big deal for me. A couple of years ago, I would probably have carried my issues around like a dark cloud and let myself get overwhelmed by the amount of work that *I* would have had to do. But in the middle of all of this God-led self-discovery, this Scripture came to me…

“And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.”--Philippians 1:6

If you read that Scripture and really, truly take it to heart, you will be able to remember, even in the darkest of times, that God is still working on you. You’re not finished yet! You will have issues until you die. You will still have faults. You will still have times where you look at yourself and think, “Have I really changed at all???” But you have. You are a work in progress and you always will be. The heartening thing is that HE is the one doing the work. All you have to do is yield.

Sometimes the yielding is the hardest part of the whole deal. But the promise is that there will be a completion. I think there are times when that thought is all I have to hold on to because I know I can’t really do anything in my own strength. But that’s the comfort you find in God…He is always working in you. He is always speaking truth. He is always loving you. He is always hearing you. He is always there, even when it feels like He isn‘t.

I hope you realize the truth that God, who created you, loves you and will continue to do the GOOD work He started. It’s not up to you, thank goodness!  So keep your head up. Keep your eyes on the horizon. Pain ends. Heartache fades. Even life’s peaks descend into valleys, at times. The one constant is the true love of your Creator and He never lets go.

Today I’m grateful for…

Quality Time. It’s my love language.

Sadness. When you mourn, you will be comforted. It’s a promise from God.

Not knowing. I am coming to a bit of a crossroads where I don't know what's happening next. However, instead of feeling fearful or like I am heading downhill, I am beginning to feel the excitement I get from waiting on God. He always does things I don’t expect.

Connections. I’m so thankful for the friendships and connections in my life. I value my friends and family so much and I am so grateful for each and every one.

Loneliness. I have moments where I feel completely alone in a crowd. It's not often, but when it happens and I give it to God, He reminds me that He is all I need. Such an important thing to learn.

Music. It’s a gift from God, whether it mentions Jesus or not. To me, music is the art of the heart. It speaks to me and says things I can’t express.

This song (below)…It’s by Colin Hay and it’s called “Waiting for My Real Life to Begin”. There’s a line in it that says, “And You say, ‘Be still, my love. Open up your heart and let the light shine in.'” As my 4-year-old son, Brendan, quotes Psalm 46:10, “SIT STILL and know that I am God.” This song renews my desire to be still and know. It doesn’t mention Jesus, but I know that it expresses how I feel sometimes. Enjoy.


1 comment:

  1. hey Sarah - great song & great post....I am glad you share you journey cause it probably often encourages others in their journey's as well....just like this did for me. I relate to the bit about issues and sometimes feeling overwhelmed by the junk I see.....so it's a good reminder to just step back & into Papa's arms again - thanks!