I let stress get the best of me. I hate all the moments when I have a difficult time just letting things slide or waiting for things to turn out. I put so much pressure on myself to get things right or make sure things are planned weeks before they happen. I feel like I have to be watchful all the time to make sure situations work out, like I always have to be "in the game." This usually happens when I lose perspective...
Well, this week I learned something from my 5 year old...it's a regular occurrence, mind you, but what I saw made me laugh and it made me think. He had his second t-ball game, which, if you know anything about 5 year olds who are learning a sport, you know it can be an interminable purgatory. :) Somewhere in the seeming hours of t-ball, probably in the 5th inning, Brendan was manning the outfield. By "manning," I mean looking up into the sky and spinning around, or crouching and playing in the dirt. As I watched, he reached down and picked up a dandelion and put it to his mouth. He took a deep breath and blew all the seeds into the wind. Then he smiled.
It occurred to me that I'm often so focused on "the game" and the pressure of trying to please everyone else that I forget to stop and take a moment to blow dandelion seeds to the wind. Was it what he was "supposed" to be doing? No. I even called out to him to pay attention. But he's a little boy, and there's something so precious about the fact that kids are so enthralled by the little things--like blowing on dandelions--even when there's pressure to perform.
So I'm going to learn from my 5 year old. I have plenty of things weighing on me at the moment, but I'm going to go outside and blow dandelion seeds to the wind. I'm going to press the pause button and get some perspective.
If you can relate to what I'm feeling, I hope you join me in hitting your own pause button. Smell the roses. Take a walk. Take a couple of minutes to watch the clouds, or smell the rain. Life is passing by too quickly to give in to pressure or to let stress get the best of you. God is always working, even though we can't always see the process. Sometimes we just need to let go of our plan, close our eyes and feel the wind.
I'm grateful for...
Mother's Day. I had a fun time with my kids. They woke me up with "breakfast in bed"...which included a carton of yogurt, and one of those little snack packs with cracker sticks that you dip in nacho cheese. It was too cute.
Sunshine and blue sky.
GREEEEEN! Oh, goodness...I am so enjoying every day of watching things grow. I love how nature is coming back to life.
Fourteen days of cyber school left in the year.
Group hugs. My kids are big fans of the group hug.
Coffee with flavored creamer.
God's faithfulness. He has never failed me and I need to remember that.
Sean's job. Even though I prefer that he be laid off, I am grateful that he has his job. God has a reason for him to be there.
Friendship. I don't get to see my friends all the time because of our current schedule, but it's so nice to know that they are there.
It's the little things, people. Enjoy them. Life is too short.