Heart in the Clouds

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Neglect

So here I am, creating a blog post. Please suppress your gasps of shock...

Honestly when I don't write, especially for such an extended period of time, I feel like I'm neglecting a part of myself. Because I am. But I almost always feel like I have nothing interesting to say. I mean, on a daily basis I have a lot to SAY, but nothing to say. Know what I mean?

I write many of my posts when I feel strongly about something in particular. Some of the things I write about create interesting discussions (especially over on Facebook), like when I was thinking about what REALLY makes a person pro-life.

I wasn't always a person of opinion.

I used to go along with what the popular opinions were in the circles in which I found myself. That was because it was easier to go along with the common thought than to think things through for myself, do some investigating and perhaps disagree with the majority. It's hard to get over that tendency, especially as a Christian.

But hatching a heart includes becoming your own bird. It's okay to become your own bird. Your opinions and ideas may not be in any way similar to the popular ones, but you're YOU. You weren't made to hide. You were given a mind to think and a heart to feel. If you put your mind and heart in God's hands, you will be surprised at the places in which you find yourself. You do have something unique to say.

And so do I, I guess.

So although I've neglected the writer in me for far too long, I find myself talking to her again and asking her what she really has to say. She's been sitting in the shadows in the back corner of my soul. But I want to make peace with her and give her a listen. I've shushed her and talked her out of speaking by telling her that she's not interesting enough. I've ignored her. I've lost track of her. I feel badly about that.

The plan is to mend the relationship with her. We'll see.

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